Sorry, My Friend

What have I done to you my friend?
When you were alone and bored
When you asked me to tell something to cheer you up
When you were in no mood to answer my stupid questions and
When you were not your usual self

I made you feel even more lonely
I expected that you shall bring a smile on my lips as you always do
I asked my stupid and irrelevant questions
And i was my usual perfect self

Unable to make you smile when u are not
Unable to be happy to myself after that and
Unable to understand my helplessness

I was walking there alone thinking how you were
Praying Him that there must be someone who made you smile and
Expecting a reply to my stupid and helpless message

Waiting there on the road as i was walking alone
Expecting you to walk past me with your smile filled dimple cheeks
Expecting you to say a warmth Hi to me and
Praying Him that your mood swing shall be on the brighter side always

What have i done to you my friend?
Except making you feel even more worse....

Childhood Musings

Childhood. I was the happiest child , Beautiful and energetic as every other child of my age could be.WIth no intensions of what should i do and what i am not supposed to do every moment. But only live that moment as i wished to and as carefree as i could get.And No waitings for the sunday to come and also no over times at the office.

Its still afresh in my mind the picture of a small girl going to school in a neatly done White uniform and a Bob hair cut which is famous in those days. Carrying a small back pack with a slate, slate pencil and a small book inside it unlike nowadays, even Infants are carrying a minimum of 3 kg weighing bag. I used to pester my Mom for right from getting up to eating my break fast and having the milk to going to school though they always were futile attempts. Who can win agsinst the Mother's love?..

So then i did start with Dad to school throwing a lifeless tata-Bye- bye smile to mom and grand ma while they were smiling and waving their hands till we went turning from our street end. Once into my world of fellow toddlers I even dint look back to wish my dad a Bye who was all the way looking at his daughter going inside the class room happily. I still remember that there was a small steel box I used to carry a single puri with sugar daily to school to have it in the break time. But after a few years my mom gave that box to Anjali aunty which dint come back to our home again. The first thing I felt hard to leave.

While getting inside the classroom I just glared back at my dad who was still standing there like a sincere student for that small moment. And I felt its my responsibility not to disappoint him so wished a Bye with smile filled eyes. In the classroom it was more of a fun with one or the other from my little group crying and my miss had to play a sweet mother to that kid. I felt that she is the most beautiful and kindest of all the women I know only next to my mom. I still can remember her smiley face every time when those thoughts just pass through my memoirs.


Everyday my mom used to come to take me back to home after the school hours. But on that day my uncle has come from our place and enthusiastic to see his niece as soon as possible he came to the school to pick me up.As we were all small my miss didnot allow me to go with a stranger and asked me if i know him.I didn't tell anything to her that it tested their patience for sometime.Finally i called him Mama so she recognised that know him and she let him take me with him to home.But after coming home i took all the chocolates and sweets he brought for me so happily.He was left wondering why is this girl was seem to be so alien to me a few minutes back and now so close. Right from that time the characteristics of my sunsign GEMINI can be seen clearly in me.(though not in all the ways)


After coming home its just fun and games everywhere with all the childresn (my friends) coming back from schools and assembling at our meeting point to start our most important works like playing, running and making our parents worried about our safety and also others safety.

There used to be very little worry about our studies and more emphasis was given to our health and hobbies. We were allowed to be in our natural habitat rather than being pushed to the tuitions and extra classes, that helped me grow the way i wnated to be with less tensions and more of fun-filled childhood. When i look back to those years my eyes smile at any time,My lips open up to talk about those days continuously and my mind is refreshed totally.Which gives me the energy to work for the hectic life that we are in. If given a chance i would like to turn these days schools to the ones we have studied in to make all the children bloom freely rather than being catalysed by some pesticides for temporary fame and happiness.

Interacation - meant for nothing

I was waiting from almost a week for this morning session of Interaction at HRDC. Only to escape from the working environment for a few hours. Some days ( infact almost all the days) like this come in my life which would continuously remind me of our good old college days.There was not even a single day i wished i could fell sick or i get a holiday out of air or many a crazy ideas like this to bunk college.Okay rams plz come out of this college life and all that never ending stuff as the theme of this post is that some session u started describing at the beginning of this para.


The so called session was scheduled to start at 8.30 and I am in the office by 8am, fifteen mins earlier to my dialy time. May be there is some unknown part my gene which will force me to reach the destination at least five minutes before the second person comes. Even the same gene code is there in Deepika's body also.We were never late to any place nor even on time. We did enough of search and research on this topic and we finally left it to our gene code which is beyond our research area.


So finally the session started at 9am (Indian punctuality).There were Mr.Rao, Mr.PTS and Mr.AJ presented on the dias with a note book in each of their hands and a bunch of printed papers. May be those papers were intended for the views of great people like us.


They wished us all a Good morning and to my surprise most people were standing like we do in our school to wish them back. I was sitting in the first row and by the time I realized whats happening everybody was back into their seats.The average age of our group is nearly 23yrs and we all are professionals by the virtue of degrees.Though that was not seen in the way we wished a morning.Then Mr.AJ resumed the meeting and briefed the agenda to us.


First point : How is your training going on?
Most people told it was excellent going on at a pace higher because we joined in those departments etc.Then started the actual scene. One guy started it saying that we don’t have PC and a table chair to sit at our work place.


Second Point : Tell me the word or a phrase used by ur BOSS that makes u happy ?
This is the part which we enjoyed the most. Have a look at the various answers that come up.
“SKY IS THE LIMIT”
“AFTER YOU JOINED HERE THE WORK IS MOVING AT A FULL PACE”
“YOU ARE VERY ENERGETIC, ENTHUSIASTIC, INTELLIGENT etc….”
“YOU CATCH UP THINGS VERY FAST”
And the best one is.“IF YOU DON’T HAVE A PC TAKE MINE, IF U DON’T HAVE A CHAIR TAKE MINE”
“YOU CAN DO IT”
“YOU CAN ASK ANY DAMN THING”


Third point : Customer focus training:
This was the major setback point in the session that dampened my spirits at a bad time. Customer focus training is a part of our traing where every trainee need to spend a minimum of six days at two customer sites and interact with the customers. We need to carry their feedback back to our place and have to find solutions to correct the bad remarks by discussing with the proper authorities.I thought instead of going to a faraway place I will go to my home town which is a home for four of our customers also and enjoy my trip.But from sources I heard that they are not allowing to go to nearby places like this.


Fourth point: What is the word or phrase used by ur BOSS dampens ur spirit ?
This was the point of interest to our HRDC people.
"DONT ASK ME ANY QUESTIONS"
"DONT ASK ME SUCH QUESTIONS"“I AM BUSY NOW”
“HERE THINGS WONT WORK, DON’T QUESTION”


I came to know from my friend about one of the most hilarious incidents at one of these previous interactions. One of our HRDC gurus have asked the crowd "WHY DID u join this job".... here came an answer shooting with a lot of patriotism "I WANT TO SERVE MY COUNTRY SIR". As if the guy is not taking home his salary and contributing for the society.

Later the session went on to discuss various issues at the hostel and people are really happy to see their friends. I think the only time everybody enjoys during our trainee life is the class room training which is more or less like a college. Making new friends and playing pranks at each other and having fun. Since i missed that part of training i will be having it later with the next batch. So i know only a few guys with whom i can actually talk and say a Hi.

Thus the session ended without any conclusion. And making a subject for my meant-for-nothing post. This is just for my time pass and a work out regime to beat-the-stress-at-work.